As I sit here and contemplate life (and how long it will take for the pain meds to kick in and knock me out) I start to ponder about what I know now that no one ever told me....
When I married a military man, I knew he might have to go.....but not when.
No one ever told me that the first year of our marriage would be spent apart. Or that the 2 weeks you got together between military schools was all it took to get you pregnant (surprise!).
No one ever told me that the closer we got, the further he would go and longer he would be away.
No one ever told me that I would do ALL the housework sometimes and most of it the rest of the time.
No one ever told me that I would feel incredibly lonely some nights and not be able to talk to him.
No one ever told me that the hardest part during deployment would be comforting my kids.
No one ever told me that the hardest part after deployment was reintegrating him back into the mix.
No one ever told me that when I needed him most, I wasn't allowed to have him.
No one ever told me what it would take to survive a deployment, let alone two.
No one ever told me that one day I would miss him dearly and the next I would resent him for not being there.
No one ever told me I would need a heart of gold, nerves of steel, quick thinking and common sense to get through another week/month/year of being alone with the kids again. (Forget the sanity....)
No one ever told me that the greatest gifts would come from people who barely know you, but want to help you because they actually are proud of your husband they never met.
Being a military wife and a mother of 4 has got to be the hardest job I have ever had....or plan on having.
I am so proud of my wonderful husband for all he does, but sometimes I just want to lock him away and keep him for myself. I'm sure you understand.
Truth be told....I am glad no one ever told me. Otherwise, I might not have had the guts to try....
Perhaps, if I got the chance to meet a newlywed military wife....I might not tell her either.
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